Many times, SO MANY TIMES, I am dealt the card no girl wants. I dread it, but it is inevitable to happen. A word that should never have a bad connotation, feels like static on my ears but rings loud in the empty space in my heart. That's right... it's the FRIEND card. Not that being friends with guys is a bad thing... NO I love guys friends. But when some situation goes from..."I'm not sure, I think he likes me... I defiantly think I like him... everything he does is really ambiguous." to "we are JUST friends" there is always a bit of disappointment. And when this situation is repeated a few times...You like/ think you like him... but he doesn't like you... that way... it's just plain depressing. I want to be friends before anything happens romantically..YES... but, it feels like every guy that you could possibly like or have any feelings for... really only thinks of you as a friend. And, like I said, being friends is not bad at all, BUT COME ON. There has to be someone that can reciprocate my feelings!! IS THERE?? This hand of cards I keep getting dealt is discouraging. Speaking of cards...I'm reminded of the childrens card game "Old Maid"...You remember that game... where you have to get rid of all the cards in your had and you don't want to get stuck with the "old maid" card. That is what I feel like!!! I am playing this game of cards and I'm winning, feeling really confident and OUCH!!... There it is... in the end I am handed the card of perpetual singleness! I know I am young! And I know that this one just didn't work out and that God has an amazing guy for me... but I'm just discouraged.
Kaliyah! No worries; Romance is not a game of Old Maid, I promise. There's so much more miraculous grace for you to taste in romance than this theory. God will get the timing just right, girl. I love you!
ReplyDeleteHey, Sweetie! Now I want you to take a deep breath, close your eyes... and blame it on him! He's just not ready yet! Stinker!
ReplyDeleteIt's ok, sometimes, we have to get it out of our systems. Ok, now that we've pointed the finger and played the blame game, ask yourself, truly ask yourself, why you want someone. If the answer, deep down, is anything other than "I know that I cannot really serve God any better with out that person", then it isn't right. God calls us into marriage to refine us further, as "iron sharpens iron". I have a friend that says, "Marriage will show you just how selfish you are", and after two months- how right she is! Be patient. I know it's hard, but, speaking from the other side of it- waiting was DEFINATELY worth it. The Lord has someone wonderful in store for you, and He will bring you together when both of you are fully prepared to love, honor, cherish, and put the other one first to the best of your ability, and when it most brings honor to Him. Can't wait to hear the story when that happens! Love you, doll!